This story began 2 years ago. When for various reasons had to take the credit. Relying on its own capabilities, I did not even know what will survive during these 2 years. It all started after the onset of the crisis. Loss of work, the constant search for revenue, do not yield any results. Every day my thoughts were only aimed at one thing: to close the debt. Inner tension grew. Grew from impotence remedy the situation. Each initiative was simply blank, and aggravated the condition of my despair. Who felt that such despair can understand me. I understand that we are created in order that would help each other. While an ordinary communication, advice or just to cheer up a kind word.
I keep myself in hands. For a long time. Well, that no one sees, as I wake up at night and for a long time I can not sleep, I see the same dreams, wake up with the same idea. Second day I live on coffee and cigarettes. Who can help to forget everything? Or at least not to think about this? Or just do not think. For me, it seems impossible. First time in my life wanted to scream for help. Open here your pain, sorrow, despair. Despair amplified because hurt loved ones. At the head of the chaos that can not be put in order, which gives rise to hopelessness. The impasse makes me a slave to his own fears. What's next? How to not break?
Now understand: compassion never help another person. Will help participates. Waiting for tomorrow ...
Who was in such a situation, write!
Light in my soul.
Even in dark times, you can find out by contacting the Light!
... and drop of hope
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